Protein

Since my last post, my protein intake has improved significantly!  I have been around 125 grams/day both days which is my goal range.  My calorie intake has been right around my target range as well which has been about 1,000-1,250/day.  Hoping that as my eating pattens continue to shift in the right direction I can cut the calorie intake down to about 800-900/day and get my carb consumption below 40/day! 

Now for the hard part....stay away from the sweets!  Evil deliciousness!

Nearly a year later

It has been nearly one year since my last entry.  This year has been so full of ups and downs and tremendous stress which has kept me from posting.  However the biggest thing that kept me from posting was having to face the fact that I have not been staying on track very well over the past year.  I have made so many choices that are not conducive to my physical, mental, or spiritual health this year that I feel ashamed and have not posted because of this.  After spending a good portion of the year trying to sort through pain and medication changes and depression I have decided that I am worth so much more than I have given myself over the last 12 months.  I deserve to get to my goal weight.  I deserve to be healthy.  I deserve to go shopping without fear or shame or humiliation.  I deserve to be happy. 


In the past 12 months I have lost two very beloved members of my family who I know would want to see me succeed.  I know that my daughter and my husband deserve the best of me and this depressive funk that has taken over my life is not even close.  I am human and I will continue to struggle with cravings, and weakness, and stress however I don't have to let one bad choice ruin a whole day full of choices.  So I mess up at breakfast?  Oh, well...I will accept it, try to learn from it, and move on to make a better choices.  Will I stumble and fall again?  Likely!  However this is all about making the decision to allow myself forgiveness and hope.

If anyone even reads this, it may seem like a very odd post.  But to anyone who really has struggled with weight, stress, depression, whatever your struggles are...remember, you always have a choice.  When you feel you have made the wrong one....do your best to learn from it and be happy with who you are!  To finish this post I leave you with two quotes from Dr. Seuss which resonate with me right now...
"You have brains in your head.  You have feet in your shoes.  You can steer yourself in any direction you choose!" -Dr. Seuss
"Today you are you, that is truer than true.  There is no one alive who is youer than you!" -Dr. Seuss

Long time no post!

It has been quite some time since my last post, but life has just been crazy around here.  We finally moved back to Iowa and are so happy!  I am working as a home care nurse and my husband is working in a warehouse nearby.  I had a surprise surgery the Tuesday before Thanksgiving which has really slowed me down.  I was having a lot of pain and when I finally got to see my surgeon he was fairly certain that I had some internal hernias, so he sent me from the office to the OR and as it turns out some of my connections were coming apart and I had some very large, thick adhesions wrapped around my bowels.  But since the surgery my pain has not returned, but some of the weight has.  I have been hovering in the 240's for months.  With the surgery and the move I gained a few lbs, but thankfully not as much as I would have gained prior to WLS.  With that being said I have taken on a new challenge in the way of liquid Tuesdays and liquid Fridays.  Meaning twice per week I will do protein shakes and water all day and then a cream soup for dinner without chunks.  So likely tomato soup since that is the only one I like.  Several of my friends (both WLS friends and non WLS friends) have joined the challenge and I am truly amazed by this.  I am so blessed to have such supportive and amazing people in my life.  I am so thankful for every single one of them.  So I will end this short entry with the hopes of jump starting my weight loss again and moving on to goal.